To my siblings:

This letter is significant because there is so much I want to say to you guys. I love you all so dearly and I feel like there is so much I’ve always wanted to communicate but never gotten the opportunity to. I only want the best for all of you. I say this because I know that life has not been easy for any of you in your years on this earth. And if I could have prevented the pain that you went through I would have. I wish I could have had more of an influence on all of you guys and I regret not having spent more time with each of you.

#1

My closest. I am saddened by what’s going on in your life right now. I cant stop wondering how you got to the point of bringing such things on to yourself. I want you to know that we all love you, possibly more than you know, and we want you to succeed. I want nothing more but for you to succeed and to be happy. But you have got to stop standing in your own way. I want you to know that I support you , and I’m sorry for the lulls that we have. I wish that I could figure you out, then I could know what to do to help. But until then, I just wish you the best and hope that you know that you always have me and I love you.

#2

I feel like I failed you. I wish the most that I could have spent more time with you. I wish that we were closer and I wish that you would come to me more often. I regret not being a more integral part of your life and hope that one day our relationship will supersede what we have now. But until then I just hope that you find your way in the best way possible. Never regret your mistakes, but always learn from them. Be careful what you say and who you say it to. Be careful with your feelings and emotions, guard yourself but don’t build walls. These are just important pieces of advice I feel a need to share and hope you carry with you everyday. I love you. 

#3

Man, this is weird, because I didnt really get to know you until this past year. And honestly I think you are growing up to be a nice young gentleman. I do wish you would take care of yourself a little better. But otherwise, your protection and maturity is coming in at just the right time. Be sure to continue to take care of mom, because your guardianship is so necessary right now. But please learn to take direction. Listen to those who are older and wiser, without arguing back. Those things are important for you. I love you. 

#4

Now this one is special. I do not talk to you enough at all. And because of the age difference, unfortunately we don’t have much of a relationship. And I wish that we had the opportunity to really get to know each other, because I know there has to be more similarity there than we think. Otherwise, my advice for you is to just enjoy being who you are. Life if supposed to be fun. I know that you have been in a lot of situations that you never asked to be in, But just remember you don’t have to grow up that fast. I love you.